A gift I received today for Foster Mothers Day....

Foster-Mother’s Day

There’s nothing much that I can do to heal your pain or mend your heart

As you and those you dearly love are now to live a life apart.

There are no words that can express my sorrow at your being bereft

Now both your babes have moved away and memories are all that’s left.

But this much I can do for you: I’ll pray with all my heart each day

That you can feel the peace of God, the One who gives and takes away.

I’ll pray you come to understand His purpose in what He has done,

That you’ll seek solace in His word and find great comfort in His Son.

I’ll give God thanks for all you’ve done to share His love with those in need,

And ask that as your children grow He’ll bring to bloom that planted seed

So, though you may not have the chance to raise them as you dreamt you might,

You’ll know there is a day to come when by God’s grace you’ll reunite.

This was from my friend Denise... 

I can't describe the feeling when Isaiah left.

 Katie had already gone to her family, 

& tho I was so happy they had their families

& went so well... with such braveness & courage!!!

(I can still see her face looking at me for assurance 

when she was giving her mum & hug for the first time

& me looking back, smiling, saying it was ok....)

I felt life was over.

I knew it wasn't

but I felt it was.

It was like a death

same pain... 

tho adoption is a new beginning for those we have cared for... 

When all the promises of an ongoing relationship with him were withdrawn, 

for reasons I still don't know

& I returned to Australia

& soon realised my China life had come to an end for awhile

well.... the grief.... 

don't even want to describe it....

& then I remembered....

I will always be their Foster Mum.

Its my title for life.... 

& I was glad!

& so I will be celebrating Mothers Day

& saying a prayer for all the foster parents who love their kids as their own 

until they find their forever families 

& then keep on loving them even if they have no contact.... 

but continue to pray & hope that these kids will grow up healthy in every way....

without ever knowing maybe...

& I will keep on praying that things will change,

& I will see him again...

& I will one day see a happy Isaiah face.... 

a really happy face.... not this half hearted half smile Ive seen so far...

& I will give thanks that Ive seen her full-smiling face

& talked with her 

& seen her laugh 

& show how happy she is!